Yesterday afternoon
Madam went to a couple of workshops about topping. Last night Lee played with
me using some of the techniques She learned. Instead of using toys, She used
Her body to give me pain. The feelings that
it evoked were amazing. It's almost indescribable. Such a juxtaposition of
feelings. i felt safe by the woman who
was kicking me, loved by the woman punching me, cherished by the woman who was
pulling my hair. She had ordered me to keep my eyes closed, which She praised
me for doing so well, and that had a two-fold effect on me. The first being
that i was very on edge about what was going to happen. The second thing was
that i really noticed Her perfume on Her wrists when She had Her hands on my
throat, my sense of smell was heightened a bit i guess.
Once She was done
beating me, we laid on the floor for a while and it took me a while to process
what we had done. After a bit i noticed the stirring in my loins, i was very
turned on. While we were actively playing i was too wrapped up in the feelings
of pain to notice but now that i had "come down" they were front and
center. Madam started to kiss me and we ended up having hot sex right there on
the floor where we had collapsed to after playing.
We moved into our
bed as it was late and had a short post-play chat about how we each felt about
the new techniques and such. When i
started to get sleepy Madam turned the lights off and i snuggled up behind my
protector and drifted to sleep with a big smile on my face.
It has been a while since we have had a
"good scene" (that doesn't sound right but i can't think of how to word it differently). I think it had a very positive effect on me, today i feel
more submissive than in the recent past. And that's definitely a good thing.
