So in My last post I talked about how it has been a bit of a struggle to feel like a Domme while doing the chores, but that I am coming around to seeing in from the D perspective. Well there was a small moment this weekend that had Me silently bursting with pride at a comment My slave made. It has been hard for her to have Me doing the chores as well and there have been times when she jokingly has said that maybe I should be the slave and other times when she sadly has said that I am better at this then she was:( This weekend, however, when she saw that I had made the bed while she was brushing her teeth she looked at Me and in that little girl voice she gets she said, "You're being such a good Daddy." It was wonderful to hear that from her!
Yesterday was the second anniversary of our first date and Wednesday is the six month anniversary of our wedding day. I love you so much My wife, My slave, My little girl.
Lately, we have been sorely lacking in playtime, but yesterday we finally played...twice...and both times were amazing. How have I allowed us to go so long without that connection for us?! The first scene was about pain and power, slave needed to feel it and I needed to give it with force. The second time was about depriving elle of her senses and all sense of control to make her feel and focus on just her body and her complete surrender to My will. We both agreed it was one of our favorite scenes. Though My girl is at work right now, I feel such a stronger connection to her than I have in the last little while. Scenes aren't just about what is being done and felt in the moment for us, they reconnect us, strengthen our bond and make the rest of life seem much more balanced.
I really must stay on top of us playing more even if that means adding it to the schedule of things to do...wash dishes, check; clean cat boxes, check; beat wife, check:) What kinky person wouldn't want that as part of their "chore" list, lol.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Monday, January 16, 2012
The cat is staring at Me and I can't think of a title
Well this is a little late in coming but Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! This post shall be the first in a much more frequently updated blog...I have My fingers crossed this time so it must be true.
The beginning of this year saw a relatively big change to My and slave elle's life. I have not worked a single day this year yet, nor will I until April. Long story short, My boss is a two faced bitch and due to her out-of-the-blue job threatening actions towards Me, I have gone on a three month stress leave. Thank goodness I will have employment insurance money coming in, but My job now until April 1 is as home. elle works four afternoons a week and extra shifts now and then so it has become My responsibility to take care of all the chores including making her lunch. It's rather a shift for us and I do definitely at times feel like our D/s roles have changed.
I am not the kind of Domme that can sit at home and do My own thing all day while My slave is off at work, and then expect her to pick up the house when she gets home at midnight. It is, however, hard to stay in any kind of Domme mind frame when checking off completed chores on the chore sheet and trying to plan dinner so My slave has a good meal to take for work the next day.
I am slowly working this into a D/s feel again in My head. As I see it, My slave is going out to do the hard work so I don't have to. I am learning how all these chores are done and how I want them done so I can better train her to do them when I am working again. I know how long chores take now so I can much better plan her days later on. I am controlling her food intake. I have been carrying her bank card for the last week or two and this morning I gave her, her allowance that she may spend on coffees or a snack, but otherwise doesn't have access to money outside of her cab fair and emergencies. I am reading up on BDSM which thus far had not taken much time to do and getting ideas...watch out girl! I am this week working on a set of simple rules/routines that we can easily follow these few months to try to up the D/s feel. Our dynamic has been a work in progress since we started and I sometimes feel there is no progress, but I think with this time off I can figure a few things out that will hopefully make it a bit easier even once I am back to work.
A while back in a post, elle alluded to there being a certain interest of hers that she wasn't yet ready to mention on here. Well we have been happily playing around with this interest since then and I am very much enjoying this added aspect to our dynamic. We are now Domme and slave, with a side of Daddy and little girl. It's fun! I think it has taken some pressure off as well. There is just a different feel to our connection when we are Daddy/lg that makes Me feel more complete in our dynamic and when she quietly say "Daddy, I love you" and cuddles in closer, I just feel all warm and gooey inside...and rather damp in certain areas as well!
The beginning of this year saw a relatively big change to My and slave elle's life. I have not worked a single day this year yet, nor will I until April. Long story short, My boss is a two faced bitch and due to her out-of-the-blue job threatening actions towards Me, I have gone on a three month stress leave. Thank goodness I will have employment insurance money coming in, but My job now until April 1 is as home. elle works four afternoons a week and extra shifts now and then so it has become My responsibility to take care of all the chores including making her lunch. It's rather a shift for us and I do definitely at times feel like our D/s roles have changed.
I am not the kind of Domme that can sit at home and do My own thing all day while My slave is off at work, and then expect her to pick up the house when she gets home at midnight. It is, however, hard to stay in any kind of Domme mind frame when checking off completed chores on the chore sheet and trying to plan dinner so My slave has a good meal to take for work the next day.
I am slowly working this into a D/s feel again in My head. As I see it, My slave is going out to do the hard work so I don't have to. I am learning how all these chores are done and how I want them done so I can better train her to do them when I am working again. I know how long chores take now so I can much better plan her days later on. I am controlling her food intake. I have been carrying her bank card for the last week or two and this morning I gave her, her allowance that she may spend on coffees or a snack, but otherwise doesn't have access to money outside of her cab fair and emergencies. I am reading up on BDSM which thus far had not taken much time to do and getting ideas...watch out girl! I am this week working on a set of simple rules/routines that we can easily follow these few months to try to up the D/s feel. Our dynamic has been a work in progress since we started and I sometimes feel there is no progress, but I think with this time off I can figure a few things out that will hopefully make it a bit easier even once I am back to work.
A while back in a post, elle alluded to there being a certain interest of hers that she wasn't yet ready to mention on here. Well we have been happily playing around with this interest since then and I am very much enjoying this added aspect to our dynamic. We are now Domme and slave, with a side of Daddy and little girl. It's fun! I think it has taken some pressure off as well. There is just a different feel to our connection when we are Daddy/lg that makes Me feel more complete in our dynamic and when she quietly say "Daddy, I love you" and cuddles in closer, I just feel all warm and gooey inside...and rather damp in certain areas as well!
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