Finally, time to write!!!

So i finally have a few minutes to write so i thought i'd better take advantage of them seeing as how my supervisor already called me and asked if i could potentially work tomorrow and Saturday evenings. The job is going ok, i still don't really enjoy what i'm doing but the staff and residents are pretty cool so that kinda makes up for it i guess. i went out with some of the women i went to school with last week, most of them are working in the two main hospitals and it sounds like they are doing much more interesting stuff than i am but the money is nice to have no matter where it's coming from. Chores have definitely been suffering though, which i feel bad about but i worked 4 shifts in eight days and with a commute time of almost an hour and a half each way i have much less time to get stuff done. For example, if i work the 0700-1500 (3pm) shift, i leave the house at 0545 and get home at the earliest at 1630 (4:30pm), usually closer to 1700 (5pm). And when i do get home i’m tired. Yes, for the most part all i do is hand out medications but that isn't quite all. i am on the move pretty much all day. Of an eight hour shift i maybe spend only 1-1.5 hours either standing still or sitting, including my break. i’m still not used to that, it’s been six months since i have had to do that. For the last couple of days i have been trying to learn some Spanish since one of the residents only speaks Spanish, and she’s blind so i can’t even gesture and point, and i feel really bad that i cannot communicate with her. Okay, enough about work, on to more interesting stuff! Lee presented me with Her behaviour modification plan for me last night. She says it still needs a bit of fine tuning before it’s instituted it but i’m glad that She has gotten this far on it and it sounds very promising. Lee is planning on making a page here about the plan She has written so watch for that coming soon and when She does please send Her a comment telling Her what a great job She did! (help me out with some positive reinforcement guys LOL) We also took a look at the list of rules that were made in the beginning of our D/s journey and did some serious revisions to them. More than half of them have been cut out. Things that we felt we didn't need rules for, for example that i could tell Madam that i love Her when ever i want to got cut. We also realized that the first rule (that i submit to Madam’s will) addressed a lot of the other rules, making the vast majority of them redundant so we only left the ones that addressed specific things that She/we felt were important enough to reiterate. There were also a couple of rules that got the axe because She had originally thought they were something that we wanted but now realize that they don’t work for us, for example the rule about me saying i love You when ever i leave Madam’s presence was starting to make the phrase loose some weight (both of us felt this way and obviously neither of us obviously want) and the rule about me encouraging Madam to write, well that never happened even once. Once the rules are fine tuned i will post them and you can let us know what you think of the update! i am happy to see that Madam has been putting so much effort into becoming more of the leader around here. i know that i have work to do on being more submissive. i’m hoping that with the new behaviour plan and revamping the rules so that they are more “Her/us” that i will be directed down that path. The biggest thing i need to work on is my control issues. i am such a control freak and when things don’t go the way i want or expect i can get very upset. i don’t want to turn my issue into Her problem but i do suspect that part of the reason that i have a hard time giving up control is that i didn't think She could manage it very well which is why i’m so excited to see that She has taken this step, it shows me that She can take charge of a situation. Now i just need Her to stop asking for my opinion so often. Give it time elle, lol! It takes time to develop new habits and that is exactly what this is for both of us. Oh the journey, gotta love it!!