Random Thoughts of a Sickey

i hate being sick! It started a week ago with a cold then on Wednesday, just as i was recovering from that, i got a what i think is a lower GI bug. The worst part is that I’ve missed three days of work and the local submissive women’s group meeting because of it. Last night i was feeling better, i thought my sickness was on its way out so i asked Lee if we could play tonight but that won’t be happening now cause this morning i woke up and felt awful. i miss playing L. i wish this stupid bug would go away so Lee and i can have some quality time in the bedroom again.

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i don’t write about ellie very often here. ellie is my little. She came out yesterday, as she often does when i’m not feeling well, either emotionally or physically. ellie is an older little, about the age of a first or second grade little girl. i think part of the reason that i haven’t really talked about her before is that i don’t really know a lot about her. i do know that she like to colour the princess colouring books, in the lines, of course. She is also very shy in public, which is probably a protective mechanism so that i don’t draw too much attention to myself when little. ellie has no friends, except for a Cabbage Patch doll named Franceine and a stuffed cow named Moo. And of course, her Poppi, which is her name for Lee. i would love to have real friends that ellie could play with but i think part of the problem with that is that i’m not little all the time and never really know when i will be.

Exploring that side of me is something that interest me but i don’t know where to even start. There doesn’t seem to be much information about littles, especially older than toddlers, on Fetlife or the internet in general that isn’t sexual in nature. As far as i know the local scene doesn’t have anything for littles but to be honest i haven’t really looked into it.


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Lee and i are going to have another sit down this coming week to discuss our D/s. We do this on a semi-regular basis since we are still fairly new to it. (unbelievably, it’s still been less than a year!) We have both agreed that the current punishment dynamic is not working and the revised rules (that i never did post, sorry!) will need a bit more tweeking if She/we are going to re-examine the punishment aspect. We aren’t going to loose the rules entirely but i think they will become more of a “statement of principles and practices” kind of idea.

That’s it for now, i think i’m going to lay down for a bit.